It has been worse when I lived at home though, always feeling like I don’t belong there. That I was too different and nobody understands me. Feeling lonely even though I was with my family and friends. It was a different kind of lonely though, as if nobody gets you. Which obviously wasn’t the case but you know how your mind can play tricks on you. We have probably all been there.
Changing environments and starting from scratch somewhere else has been a huge help for me. Building a new, healthier routine is so beneficial if you feel like you aren’t doing any progress and going through the same day again and again. Living in the same place where you were feeling stuck is just constantly going to remind you of your ‘bad’ days. It is very hard to get out of the rut when you’re reminded of these moments on a daily basis. I am not saying that it is impossible but it will take a lot of dedication and hard work.
The move has been the best thing that could have happened to me in the last year. As I said above, I have made huge steps that I would never have been able to do if I had stayed at home. I really feel like a different person, with more confidence and less anxiety. It’s still a daily battle, making efforts every single day and fighting for my freedom, to reduce the ‘bad’ days. But over the last few months I have made so much more progress than I have done over the last couple of years and it is something I think I can be quite proud of. Seeing that you can change your mindset and that you are the master of your own thoughts is a huge motivation to stay on this path.